Things That Happen In
Your Thirties #106: Random Bruising
Why is it, I always find
some random mark or bruise & I don’t know how I got it...like I’m not
falling out the bed when I’m sleeping. What gives?
Anywho, so update on the
weight loss goals. Yesterday I went home & had this diet smoothie thing for
my 3pm snack. My oh so awesome juicer arrived in mail from Amazon, so I juiced
for the first time in my life!!! It was the most exhilarating thing ever, next
to partying all night in Vegas with my BFF, traveling, shopping, and dropping
it like its hot on the dance floor! For Dinner I had baked chicken & mixed
grain rice. I didn’t eat any veggies, cause I juiced them!!! I did eat some of
the pulp for fiber. For my 9pm snack I had nuts & cheese. And believe it or
not, no night caps!!!
This morning I got on the
scale and it read 208 (down 3 pounds from the morning before! Praying it wasn’t
just water weight!!!)
Today So Far I had:
Breakfast (7:30a)
Breakfast Smoothie made
with pineapple & side of sausage
Snack (10:30a)
2.5oz mixed nuts
Lunch (12:30p)
Turkey breast cob Salad
from Pret with light dressing
Things that happen in
your thirties #3: Instant Weight Gain Overnight!
I love food!!! I like the
smell of it, the taste of it, the way it makes me feel on a cold day, a sad
day, a happy day, and just in general. My waistline proves it. So starting
today, I have to get serious about what I put in my mouth!!! Real Serious. I’m
215lbs in the afternoon (although I weighed in at 211 this morning, without
anything in my system of course!) I have about 80lbs of pure fat in my body. And
it’s time for me to drop 40 of them like a bad habit! My goal is to lose a
total of 40 pounds in the next 6 months, but to overall be healthy & to get
back in my oh so cute dresses!
So here’s day 1 of my
journey:
Breakfast (7:30a)
Fruit/yoghurt smoothie (I made it with 1/3 c frozen berries, 1 whole banana, plain non-fat yoghurt, splash vanilla soy, splash of Trader Joes Beet/Berry Juice & water)
1 hard boiled egg
Snack (10:00a)
This nasty ass diet
pudding
Lunch (12:30p)
3 oz grilled chicken
Cucumber, tomato, salad
with olives, feta, olive oil & apple cider vinegar
1 banana
(Oh & I cheated &
had 4 pieces of fried shrimp, not on the plan)
My 3pm Snack & Dinner
- To be determined!!!
I'll think about those before & after pics...don't want to scare you :)
So, I'm making moves...like literally. Since I have been done with school, I have been on Indeed.com everyday, looking for potential new gigs. This week I responded to an ad for a creative blogger/writer for a new dining blog. It's freelance, so I would still need to work my regular j-o-b... but it is a step in the right direction. Here was my initial note/e-mail response to the ad:
I am a fat girl, stuck in a chunky girl's body...sort-of. My love of
food has me gallivanting around town, checking out new eateries and
chatting it up with the bartenders & chefs. When I'm not stuffing my
face with delectable delights, I'm checking out the decor, ambiance,
and the locals...stuffing their faces with delectable delights. Bisnow needs me on their team to help uncover the madness behind the goodness. PICK ME, to be your new dining blogger. xoxox Lover of All Things Food
They responded back with a request for a quick story or something new in the area related to food, blah, blah, blah. So I hit the streets, got my story and am sending it tonight or tomorrow!!!
My other move...is running, rather, actually, a slight slow jog. I'm running a 10K in July...which is a good thing, my hips and everything else has spread a little more...things that happen in your thirties...easy weight gain!!!
I am finally done with this semester!!! It's been a roller-coaster. All I want to do now is drink wine, veg out & watch questionable t.v. shows
I had a weird dream this week about two guys I dated in the past. Well, sort-of dated. Long story short, we were "gettin-down" in my dream, not all together...separate scenes. I wonder what that means. Maybe I'm sexually frustrated.
I want to go to the beach and play in the water, even though I can't swim.
I can finally start getting my house together, like putting together that sofa for the guest bedroom
I'm going to a house party this weekend...I haven't been to a house party in FOREVER! I can't wait.
I know what I want to do with my life...eat, drink and travel...
I have so much more to blog about, but I left my camera at home...I have to show you some awesomeness I discovered recently!!!
So, I'm in a Master's Program for Liberal Studies, and am almost done (yea, me!). This semester, I would say has been my most stressful one yet, in-part, due to me procrastinating, but also because I took two courses in which the professors pushed the bounds in every way imaginable. Maybe it is because my previous professors didn't expect much, so I did the minimum to get the A, so now, I'm not used to these two kick-ass, take names later, Rambo-styled pros. In saying that, I do like a challenge, but I'm at my wits end. Yesterday I turned in a paper, and will probably be second-guessing everything I wrote until my final grade comes out or until I finish my bottle of wine, which ever one comes first, and I'm 100% sure my bottle will be done tonight. So I leave you with an excerpt from my gender, religion & politics paper, feel free to comment on it:
The
question – why - has always been at the back of my mind in regards to the order
and nature of things. Why am I a woman? Why am I black? Why am I here? Why is
Jesus portrayed as being white? Why did Eve eat the apple? Why do people that
do not believe in Christianity, but believe in other religions go to hell? Questioning
the order and nature of things comes naturally to me. During my enlightenment
in this course on the Politics of Gender & Religion, one question preceded
another. Questioning the patriarchal (and class and race) system comes
naturally, because I have always been considered (by Western colonial
patriarchy societies) to be at the bottom of all of societies class and race structures
as a woman of African descent. Therefore, it is only natural, that I question
the institution of something that has held me at a lower esteem than others in
general.
At its core, religion can be and has
been a beautiful practice. However, it can also be an oxymoron of sorts. The
historical structure of society has favored the male patriarch for so long,
women as matriarchs, priestesses and goddesses diminished to the point of
becoming defined as mythical, ethereal, idol worshipping myths of the past. “The
decline in women’s status was followed eventually by the decline of goddesses
and the rise to the supremacy of gods.”[1]The Dinah’s, Mary’s, Rebecca’s, Khadija’s and
A’isha’s became second-class citizens, whores and idol worshipers in the name
of patriarchy and politics. However, arguably, the emergence of the
monotheistic religions, took on the images of the current societal structures
at the time of their birth, but did not evolve and did little to raise the
status of women. Instead, male leaders within these religions perpetuated and
pushed gender roles and norms, while utilizing religious texts to validate
their arguments for the order of things.
This class has debunked many myths,
stereotypes, and views I held about religion in general. Although, I am still a
bit mistrustful of religion as an institution, the class discussions and texts
have opened up other epiphanies as to the nature of gender and its discourse
overtime. In deconstructing gender and the matrix of religion as it pertains to
gender, I am now able to dissect some of it tenets as being one-dimensional patriarchal,
Western interpretations and the institutionalization of religion itself.
Further, in evaluating the construction and deconstruction of gender, I surmise
that gender performance will always exist; it is up to us to see gender on an
egalitarian continuum. This paper outlines a small piece of what I have learned
and will take away from this course as a foundation to build upon, in my
continuous quest for knowledge.
[1]Ahmed,
Leila; Women and Gender in Islam, pg. 13 - from this point forward, I
will refer to her as Ahmed, with page citation in text.
I’m sure I have A.D.D. Probably the most extreme and rarest
form. I cannot focus on anything. I read in like 15 minute intervals (which
explains why it takes forever to get my school work done) unless it’s a juicy
book, that I can’t put down, which is rarer than, insert idiom here. Oh, and I'm sure I am just procrastinating on the inevitable...doing my school work.
So what can I do about my self-diagnosis? Right now, I’m
supposed to be writing two papers for class, but instead I just spent the last
hour: watching t.v., reading blogs, browsing Facebook, playing words with friends, and typing this…
Sigh.
I just read this article
on the possibility that the first-ever black bachelor may be right around the
corner. Now, while I want to jump up and down and do cartwheels, because ABC is
finally trying to bring some diversity to its hit Bachelor & Bachelorette series.
I will do mini hops instead. I will not hold my breath on the fact, that there
will be some ignorant, anti-multicultural people getting all up in arms about
the possibility of an ethnically diverse season. See the thing is, one or two
things could happen, if they choose the hotness that is Lamar Hurd. 1) Ratings
skyrocket 2) Ratings Plummet. Is America ready for Lamar Hurd? He
has all of the makings of a true ABC Bachelor:
Good Looking - check
Great Career - check
Mentally Stable - check
Likability - check
Physically fit - check
Oh and the bonus, he is
probably funny, charismatic and has soul (all of which Ben, the last Bachelor
seemed to lack) Check out the full deets on Lamar here.
Hmmm, maybe I should fill out the app to be his black queen!!!
